Crankypantsing, Letters to Esther

Asswagons, Network Outages & Letters to Esther

Just kill me now. I didn’t want to come to work this ayem. The county roads were icy and, even if I weren’t worried about sliding off the road, I would’ve been worried about random asswagons committing random acts of asswagonry. I was not disappointed. When I turned off HWY 46 onto Arlington Road (from 4-lane highway to 2-lane road), some jerk decided to try turning left at the same time. I looked up and saw that there was a car to my right. Now, I’m not a brilliant physicist, but I do recall that there is a law stating that two masses cannot occupy the same space at the same time. I braked and let the Mr. Asshat get in front of me. I’m not in a big enough hurry to get to work that I’m willing to get involved in a game of dueling sub-compacts with an uberasshole.

Then, because a 45 minute white knuckle drive wasn’t exciting enough, I got to work and the network was down. God clearly hates me. Because the network is down, everyone is milling about and chit-chatting. There isn’t really any work we can do, and staring at the ceiling is boring, so that leaves talking. One woman has been on the phone for over an hour, whinging about her family problems. The phone is rightbehindmydesk. I’m stuck eavesdropping on what is turning out to be a very private converstation. I am not amused. I resent having to listen to her tale of woe. And, so much for anyone else who needs to use the phone or any incoming calls. Sheesh! On the bright side, I stayed home yesterday and got a lot done. I thought briefly about going back to bed, but decided I should make the most of my unplanned day off. I did a little arting and scanned and uploaded what I’d done, I worked for awhile on the Dada Book, and I transcribed some more letters.

About those letters. Oh my. When I first started this project, I didn’t realize there were so many rough drafts of Esther’s replies (so far exclusively to Richard) included in the envelopes. I’m grateful that she was so organized. However, the replies themselves are difficult to read. Because they are rough drafts, there are numerous cross-outs and insertions. The punctuation and spelling are not as careful as they likely would’ve been in the finished drafts. They were written in pencil on cheap, pulpy tablet paper, often on the backs of school lessons. The pencil has faded and the paper has darkened. The paper is also extremely brittle, so unfolding and refolding it is tricky. All this makes for slow going in the transcription department.

I did a little more digging and came up with an old post to a geneology group from someone looking for information on Esther’s brother, Clark Munro. The poster’s e-mail address is no longer active, so I can’t contact her directly, but I left a reply. Hopefully she’ll check back.

The pièce de résistance was finally locating a bundle of letters written after Esther married. I now have her husband’s name: Robert H. Cooper. I did some quick Googling and found that he taught at Ball State University. The Cooper Science Building was named for him. I’ve spent an awful lot of time in that building. It’s funny how the threads of different lives become interwoven.

Dr. Cooper was a conservationist. The regional chapter of the Audubon Society was named after him and one of it’s most prestigious awards after him and his wife. Ball State University has also named an award in honor of the couple, as well as one of the its field sciences study areas.

Art, Paintings, Poetry

Happy I Found and Finished the Sky

Happy I Found and Finished the Sky
Happy I Found and Finished the Sky
acrylic and Faber-Castell Pitt pen in composition book journal

Happy I found
and finished the sky
cleared up as I
have been toying around with
the spine
I swear counting backwards
in control of the wind
I was named after him
hidden and harder than anything.

Spent an hour down
with the dogs
all underfoot and more
from the digging
half a red letter tall
a storm day of woe
when it is warm
leave the baker alone
the same hope does not seem to keep us.

I’ve been dwelling too much on the weather. I saw a glimpse of sun as I drove home this afternoon and it made me think of optimism and expectations, which made me think of the story of Pandora and her jar of woe, which made me think of the dual nature of hope. How hope can inspire both dreams and nightmares.

Art, Collage, Journals

The Rain Boat & My Favorite Old Jeans

Rain Boat

Favorite Jeans
Top: The Rain Boat
Bottom: My Favorite Jeans
acrylic, Faber-Castell Pit pens, and collage in composition book journal

It’s been raining for days, so I’ve been thinking of boats again. Taking my cue from the weather, I came home from work yesterday and painted the background a muddy navy color. It reminded me of stormy seas and old denim, so I made another paper boat. This morning I added a doodle of my favorite blue jeans. I got a little over-zealous trying to blend the ink (Pitt pens are permanent, dummy). I managed to tone down the pen strokes a bit, but in the process I nearly rubbed a hole in the paper. Oh serendipity! It looks all the more like worn denim.

And, of course, the rain has now turned to a lovely “wintry mix.” Winter in Indiana is so, well, Winter in Indiana.

(Ha! After checking to make sure this entry was displaying correctly, I was reminded of the Dr. Seuss story What Was I Scared Of?)

Art, Paintings

Radish

Radish

I went to the grocery store Saturday morning and bought a cartful of veggies. Babbs has the yummiest veggies. (Though the cashier was confounded by my sack of fresh brussels sprouts. “What are those?” she asked.) Their radishes are especially good–crisp and sweet and slightly sharp, without the excessive bite that radishes can get. Oh yes, and a hint of garlic, too.

I washed and halved a baggie of them to bring to work today, so I’d have something to snack on. I overestimated as I was pulling them off the greens, so it’s a very large baggie of radishes. I was distracted by the dogs underfoot; it never fails to amuse me as they snatch the flung roots and tops and gobble them up. I’ve trained them well to intercept random veggie missiles.

Anyway, I’m enjoying my little late-morning snack.

Art, Journals

Spring Flowers

Spring Flowers
Spring Flowers
composition book journal

I went shopping yesterday morning and picked up some new cheap, metallic gel markers (RoseArt). They show up nicely against dark colored backgrounds. They also blend well if you work quickly. Inspired by the warm sunny day and by the memory of drawing with similar markers when I was young, I decided to draw a bright, childish landscape.

I had pre-painted the paper the night before with metallic blue and periwinkle paint. The left-hand page stretched slightly, causing minor wrinkling. In person the wrinkles are minimal, but because the page is painted with metallic paint, it is extremely reflective; the scanner accentuated the wrinkles.

Art, Collage, Ladybusiness

Vessels: Blue Moon Gold Halo

A Book of Vessels: Blue Moon Gold Halo
Vessels: Blue Moon Gold Halo
collage

This is another piece in the same series as the Identity Theft pieces. Instead of working in a composition book, these pieces were all done on chip board. My plan is to eventually bind them all into a book. The book’s working title is Vessels. That could change, but at this point things are shaping up nicely within that overall theme.

As with most of the glue book pieces I’ve done, this one is nothing new or profound. It’s just a reflection of where my head was at the time. Glue books, for me, are as much stream of consciousness as anything. As you can see, I’ve been thinking a lot about the dichotomy between the Virgin and the Whore. Girls learn at a very young age that they’re either one or the other. However, as any sane woman can tell you, there are no such absolutes.

Photography

Three Sunrises

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The sunrise this morning was quiet and lovely. There was a hard frost and the air was fresh and crunchy, like grannysmith apples. There was also a bit of fog, so the light was both magnified and diffused. I took these pictures just after the sun had fully crested the eastern ridge. Because I was facing into the sun, the pictures turned out much darker than the actual conditions were.

The dogs also enjoyed the crisp, sunny morning, entertaining themselves chasing rabbit tracks and digging for moles. You can just make out Elliott silhouetted against the grass in the first picture.

Art, Journals

Storm of Words

Storm of Words
Storm of Words
composition book journal

I didn’t intend for the background to look like camouflage; that was a happy accident. I grabbed the ugliest, dirtiest green and brown paint I had and smeared them all over the page. Then, I washed off as much as I could with a baby wipe. I wrote down all the words that had been stalking me over the past few days, using the paint swirls as a guide. The actual words have been pixilated, since y’all don’t need to know exactly what crazy rantings have been flying around in my head. Besides, it was mostly an exorcism. I’d had more input than I’m used to and needed a place to dump the overflow.

Red Letter Day
Red Letter Day
composition book journal

Ugh. Sometimes, having a red letter day is not a good thing.

On the bright side, last night I finally got my car back from the shop. I’m $250 poorer, but it was money well spent. Not having a car for three weeks reminded me of how attached I am to my own mobility. It’s frustrating not to be able to hop in the car and run to the grocery store when I want, or go play in the pen aisle at Walmart because I “need” a toy fix, or get Kleenex and cough syrup when I was sick. Yeah, I’ve got wonderful friends next door who were great about making sure I had what I needed, but it’s not the same as being able to go get it myself.